Feelings seem to be at quite a fever pitch the past few days in my part of the world. It's hard to pinpoint what exactly the feelings would even really be except to say "overflowing". That kind of intensity may in part be explained by looking up to the sky. We're in a full moon cycle. It's actually a Full Moon in Leo tomorrow night. Often the intensity of a full moon seems to precede the actual event, so maybe it's no wonder the drama seems intensified. Perhaps tomorrow will bring some release and relief?
I've written about the full moon in Leo before http://pixiedusthealing.blogspot.ca/2012/02/full-moon-in-leo.html and all of this still applies, maybe even more so, as continue to move in an ever- changing world. The energy of the moon in Leo is a call to action. It's a time to shine your light in the world, be creative, step up to the plate, express yourself, bring out your inner lion. http://pixiedusthealing.blogspot.ca/2012/02/finding-your-inner-lion.html Hmm...
Sounds intense. No more hiding in the shadows when a Full Moon in Leo is exerting forces into nature. That kind of intensity can be a bit difficult to manage I figure. I believe we feel the intensity of this energy but we often don't know how to respond to this "call to action". And a discrepancy between how we feel and how we act is a recipe for conflict and inner turmoil. And once we feel inner turmoil, we tend to like to put a name to it. We don't "sit" in turmoil well. We decide we must be depressed, or mad, or angry, or suppressed, hard done by, wrongfully accused.... It seems to me that if we're happy we're okay to just feel happy, but we want to put descriptors on any of the negative emotions. In fact, it seems we try to internalize happiness and externalize any other emotion. Hmm...
I think such externalization can be problematic. Once you look outside yourself for a reason to be feeling anything less than happy or peaceful, you'll probably find all kinds of things to focus on. And if you've been practicing "let's pretend" http://pixiedusthealing.blogspot.ca/2012/12/a-game-of-pretend.html, you'll be able to create all kinds of painful scenarios. But once you create the scenarios, you might find it hard to get out of your pretend world.
So if you've "pretended" yourself into a tumultuous place, pat yourself on the back. It means you are "the boss of you" http://pixiedusthealing.blogspot.ca/2012/11/the-boss-of-me.html. That's a good thing. That's a great thing! If you want to sit with that turmoil under the light of the full moon, and the intensity of the "nearly" full moon, go for it. Acknowledge your ability to grow this energy, nourish it, and live it. But take responsibility for it. You have the power.
If you find yourself in a happy place, pat yourself on the back. It means you are the boss of you, and that's a good think. If you want to sit with that happiness under the light of the full moon, and the intensity of the "nearly" full moon, go for it. Acknowledge your ability to grow this energy, nourish it, and live it. But take responsibility for it. You have the power.
The point is all emotions and all energy is freely "out there" and also inside you. The Full Moon just makes it more obvious and is perhaps a boost of fertilizer to whatever it is you're growing. Hmm....
In Shamanic Astrology, Lucy Harmer writes;
"The full moon represents a physical and spiritual energy "peak", where spiritual and earth energies mingle; during this period, emotions and subconscious desires come to the fore. The energy of the full moon helps us develop our psychic gifts and reclaim our power."
So if you're feeling an emotion that seems a little "uncomfortable" or more intense, maybe that's just because you've buried it a little deep and haven't let it out to shine lately. Maybe that's a bit of your shadow coming out to bask in the moonlight. http://pixiedusthealing.blogspot.ca/2012/03/connecting-with-your-shadow.html